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7 Days of Ongoing Control – Your Cock (or Clitty) Belongs to Me

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I offer a few ongoing control programs also known as The Mistress Experience. These are very popular with guys looking for something more than phone sex.  Although orgasm control is required regardless of type of relationship we have ( sissy, cuckolding, mistress.slave, tease and denial, foot worship) I truly do modify to fit both of our interest. This is what makes it so unique. I thought it would be interesting to share an example of the reporting I get from one of the guys that has submitted to ongoing control.

A lot of people wonder what’s in it for me and the answer is control. I thrive on it.  As you will see in his daily reports he is very good at engaging me & keeping me updated on what is going on between his legs and between his ears. This is what makes it hot for both of us. After 7-10 days he might choose to take a break for a while and come back later or continue onto a 30 Day Ongoing Program. 

Below are his words. I will have him continue in the comments sections with his reports and my answers should he continue on with 30 days.

A Week of Control with a Serious Foot Slave

I wanted to do this for several reasons.  First, too much fantasizing by myself gets stale.  Since getting divorced, I’ve done way too much fantasizing.  In that time I’ve explored this realm some, mostly buying clips, custom clips, phone or webcam sessions.  Those are all temporary fixes.  There was always something missing, like I couldn’t really completely let myself go.  I liked the fantasy of being controlled & willing to do anything, but was apprehensive to try it for real.  In a weak moment on a Sunday evening when I’d already wasted most of a weekend masturbating, I came across Goddess Natalie.  Her email & Twitter handle CruelNatalie sounded awesome.  I really wanted to be humiliated way beyond what I’ve fantasized about.  After reading her website a little I could see that she had the background & experience to make that happen.  The majority that you find to dominate in person usually don’t meet the IQ prerequisite for elementary school graduation, so the experience is sub-optimal (I faked finishing once just to be done with one).  Mostly I felt like I needed to be more productive w/my life & a lot more disciplined

 

Day One

I became aroused emailing with Goddess Natalie, especially when I read “Your cock is mine.”  The anticipation had me excited & wishing I had rubbed one out before starting because already that was all I wanted to do.

Then I read Your blog entry “Can you truly give up sexual control?”  I’ll have to admit that I was fully planning to cheat.  I was so hard after you wrote “no touching” that I was practically doubled-over in discomfort.  I watched Your cock twitch, throb, & almost dance.  I briefly surfed for cuckolding videos, & thought I’d masturbate at bedtime as always, & just not tell you.  That blog entry really had me pegged.  “You keep going around and around in the same damn circle wondering why you never completely get what you need.”  I’ve been missing something & have never been able to fully figure out what it is.  I have incredibly intense hardons and orgasms, but I’ve always wanted to really let myself go.  I desperately want to be owned and controlled for real.  The fantasy’s great, but it never fully gives me what I’m searching for.  After reading that I was motivated to complete day one.  That was all the farther I could let my mind go.  I can’t remember the last time I didn’t masturbate for a day, let alone didn’t even touch it.

 

At around 5:00, I did some things to take my mind off of masturbating, which in truth, takes up way too much of my time.  I started thinking about how much more productive I’d be if I wasn’t thinking about the next time I was going to stroke it most of the time.

 

7:30 I checked my work email.  There was a message (not just to me) from a very attractive, tall, blond woman at work.  She’s been wearing sandals that cover barely any of her feet lately & get get aroused every time she walks by.  She’s extremely nice & doesn’t seem dominant, so I’ve never fantasized about her, but the thought of her perfect feet at this moment got me hard for the better part of 10 minutes.  I took a long shower, to pass some time.  I washed Your cock as quickly as I could & used a washcloth, so didn’t directly touch it.  The action made it get halfway hard.  Being 100% honest I also touched it to go to the bathroom, but let go as soon as I finished.  Later realized I was stupid, that if I peed sitting down I wouldn’t have to touch Your cock, so I have made that adjustment.

 

10:30 really wishing I could masturbate to help me sleep.  I watched baseball in bed & fell asleep.  I woke up at 12 & 1 with extreme hardons, but went to the bathroom after the second time & it went away.  I’m not sure what might have caused those in my sleep, but at about 3 woke up w/Your cock throbbing.  I had been dreaming & in the course of a weird dream I was licking my ex-wife’s feet.  We had never played like that & she’s not dominant, but has very pretty feet.  I’ve fantasized about licking her feet from time-to-time, usually after seeing her barefoot.  I had seen her barefoot Thursday evening & had fantasized about cleaning her dirty feet before bed that night.  I think since my last orgasm was to her that it was top of mind.  I usually prefer to fantasize and have an orgasm about someone else, to get that taste out of my mouth, so to speak, but started this program & haven’t been able to touch Your penis.

 

Woke up at 5 & can’t get back to sleep because I’m so horny.  Usually I’d masturbate to get back to sleep.  On a normal Saturday without my kids I’d do it 3-4 times.  At one point I was shaking, as if going through withdrawals.  I made breakfast & am going to get an early run in.  Working out usually gets rid of the urge for a while.  I’m going to lift weights when I return and have come up with a good to-do list for after my son’s baseball game at 11.  I’m going to clean my house, need to re-seal one of my bathtubs, shop for a hanging light, put it up, and then I’ll have to figure something out.

 

All-in-all not the easiest night I’ve spent, & definitely not a very good night’s sleep, but got through it & hope Your cock isn’t desperately hard all day today, though expect to have some challenging moments.  The idea that I really can’t touch it and that I want to prove myself to you kept me going.

 

My Bedroom eyes
My Bedroom eyes

Day Two

Goddess assigned me the task of buying panties.

Your cock is hard almost constantly at this point.  It’s uncomfortable and I can’t control it at all.  I would tell you if I had an accident, but I would also welcome one at this point.  I want to roll in it and lick it up.  I think it will be very difficult to last 7 more hours, let alone days.  With that, I think I’d just be making my situation worse if I were to play with it & not finish.  I hope to be able to overcome this weakness today.

 

Buying panties was kind of embarrassing.  There were a lot of people there, & right around that area.  A woman I see at work saw me.  I don’t work with her & don’t even know her name, but just someone I pass frequently in the hallways.  She’s older & I’m not sure if she recognized me at all, or only to the same degree I know her.  It took me until I was back out to my car to figure out where I knew her.  That ended up being much more difficult than I expected.  I tried to go through self-checkout.  There was a line & the woman running that area called me up & rang up my items.  She was Asian & didn’t speak strong English, but gave me a smirk while ringing up my stuff – I bought a handful of things I didn’t even need, to try & bury them too.  I couldn’t stop staring at the feet of female customers in flip flops either.

 

I was rewarded with pictures of Goddess Natalie and allowed to rub her cock with the flat of my hand through my panties as a reward!  I was positive I’d spent most of my time in punishment, so a reward was awesome.

 

Day Three

My panties were very comfortable.  I loved wearing them around the house while I was home yesterday/last night.  I wore them to sleep, but noticed a drip/pee stains on the front, so they’re in the wash now.  Am I supposed to wear them to work tomorrow?  I’d love to, but wanted to ask You to make sure that was all right with You.  I wish I didn’t have to take them off & the washer would hurry (I read the label & am washing them correctly).

 

I had trouble yesterday morning, but found enough things to do, & didn’t’ really think about Your cock that much in the afternoon. It became very hard a little after noon when I read You telling me that You want to keep me this way a bit (& every time I re-read that sentence).

 

At around 7 I was outside grilling when an attractive woman wearing flip flops was hanging out w/the next door neighbor.  I went inside & stared at them out the window.  The mannerisms of her feet were as if she was teasing me, but she couldn’t have been.  That got me hard & wanting to rub it again.  I also felt creepy staring out the window, but couldn’t stop staring.

 

I fell asleep pretty quickly, but woke up around 12 w/a throbbing hard-on.  It felt like it was so big that it had grown up to my belly button.  I thought it would never stop throbbing or go down.  I thought there was a very good chance I’d have my first wet dream since college; if I could get back to sleep.

 

Had a dream about this woman I work out with at work a couple of days/week.  I dreamt that we were wrestling &she kept getting the better of me, even though I wasn’t letting her win. I woke up w/a hard-on over that & had to get up a walk around a bit.  This was a little before 3.

 

At 4 had a dream that I was giving my boss a foot massage as we talked over work projects.  I don’t find her attractive, but previously had dreamt about painting her toenails.  I usually don’t, but this time couldn’t stop thinking about exploring this fantasy.  I went through many justifications & really, really tried to talk myself into it, but didn’t.  I bent over so as to squeeze it a little to make it go down.

 

At 6 woke up extremely hard again, but not sure why.  It’s been at least halfway hard since, even though I’ve been doing things to try & stay occupied.  It doesn’t help that I keep re-reading things You’ve written that turn me on & have one of the pics You generously sent me as wallpaper – that slave is the luckiest person alive to have touched Your amazing feet.  I feel like today’s really going to be a struggle.  I would normally knock one out, out of necessity, so that I could get on w/my day.  I’m anxious and on-edge.  I need to do something to take my mind off of it, but feel like w/my balls aching & Your cock hard constantly that I can’t do anything, like I’m stuck.

 

Day Four

Goddess Natalie allowed me to touch myself as much as I want today.  There would be a $75.00 fee in the form of an Amazon gift card for goddess Natalie if I had an accident.  I knew this would be a double-edged sword, but the no touching was a lot more difficult than I thought.  I grad, touch, itch, etc. a lot – go figure!  It was a blessing to be able to grab & rub it, but really difficult because it made me want to cum all the more.  I was feeling the motivation of not wanting to let down or disappoint Goddess Natalie.

It would probably be a much shorter report if I told Goddess about the times I wasn’t hard.  Your cock was hard all day.  I grabbed it many times, hard, in the hopes it would go down & stay down.

 

At the coffee shop I sat down to eat/drink briefly.  There were two comfortable chairs w/a footrest between them.  A not at all attractive woman sat in the chair next to me & played on her phone.  She took off her flip flops & had her legs crossed on the footrest.  I stayed longer than I would have to stare at her feet.  I don’t think she caught me.

 

I didn’t want to come home because I was afraid I’d go crazy.  I went to a bar & ogled every woman who came in w/revealing shoes.  I couldn’t stop thinking about bare feet, & every woman seemed to be taunting me w/theirs.  Two woman sat one chair away from me at the bar & didn’t acknowledge my existence.  One took her sandals off one at a time & rubbed her feet, picked at her toes, & even wiped off the soles w/a wet wipe.  I was afraid I was drooling.

 

I felt like a ridiculous perv everywhere I went, so went home.  I found a few things to do, but around 8 it became difficult.  I think Your cock has been hard since then.  I bumped into some old emails of my ex-wife’s from around the time of our divorce.  She had a lot of derogatory things to say about me to her friends & boyfriends, that now turn me on.  I looked through the folder I have on my computer of pictures of her feet & was almost crying I wanted to masturbate to them so badly.  I’ve had major cuckolding fantasies all night (even though she didn’t do that on purpose).

 

Work will be a challenge if I don’t release before I go in.  There’s a never-ending string of attractive women of all ages wearing almost nothing to cover their feet.  I have a meeting w/one at 10:30.  She’s one of those people that always seems to catch me doing something stupid.  She’s seen me picking my nose and dumb stuff like that, but I think knows I’m into feet.  If there’s a seat next to me she always takes it & takes her shoes off during the meeting.  She chuckled at me once & I’m pretty sure she knew I was adjusting Your cock, putting under the elastic from my boxers, to hide a boner.  Right after that I walked by her on my way into the gym.  She was on her way out.  She looked right at my crotch & laughed a little out loud.  I’m already afraid of her a little, but this is a one-on-one meeting.  In those cases I’m always a stuttering, stammering mess.  I start to sweat a little & would desperately love to be relaxed during this one.  I can’t convince her that I’m intelligent in the state I’m in.

 

I’ve contemplated calling in sick, but I’d for sure cave in & masturbate all day if I didn’t have anything to do.  I would feel awful to have come this far & then to let you down.  Would it be possible for me to get a quick one out so that I can function normally today?

 

Goddess didn’t give in to my begging.  She briefly addresses it (usually that she’s amused) then goes into what’s next for me, & also makes me wait for her replies, all of which turns me on.  She said “Hang in there,” & then my thoughts of cheating went away.

 

In the afternoon I received an assignment to buy & listen to a cock control hypnosis MP3 Goddess Natalie made.  I was fully planning to cheat & wasn’t sure if I would tell Goddess Natalie or not.  After listening to her audio I wanted to wait for her (Goddess mentioned a phone call in the near future, so I think that’s the light at the end of the tunnel).  The description of the release in the audio certainly sounds like something worth waiting for.  Someone just said “Hello” to me at work & my thoughts went right to a message from the audio.

 

Now I’m tasked with buying a vibrator, so I’m very intrigued.  This has been extremely difficult, but something I think I needed to prove to myself that I could do.  I’m such a perv, that I feel like if I can go a few days, a week, or whatever w/o masturbating, then I have renewed confidence in my willpower.  As painful as it is right now I don’t want to mess anything up for the big release I hope to earn from Goddess.  Letting go now would decrease the strength of that orgasm.  I thought for sure today I’d crack, but I think I’ve found my motivation.

 



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8 Comments

Scott On August 15, 2014 | Reply

Amazing story! I’m so jealous that you’ve had this incredible experience with Goddess Natalie. I hope to be able to add my own story to yours soon… Please tell us any more details about your time serving her that you can.

    Natalie On August 15, 2014 | Reply

    He may be taking a break. He did awesome and was great at reporting as you can see.

philo On August 15, 2014 | Reply

Really interesting post, it’s fun hearing about others experiences.
it is so different to be controlled by a real person, I found I could cope with so much more than I thought I could.
I have not been controlled by goddess natalie but it is hard to find someone like her so if you wany to experience this I would definitely go for it.
I love the photo by the way, the submissive lower position of the viewer, the expression on your face, the casual pinching of his nipple and you look so beautiful.

    Natalie On August 15, 2014 | Reply

    why thank you! I also want to thank you for helping me with the site.

Sean On August 19, 2014 | Reply

That is some hot shit….I need to become more abundant financially so I can shower you with tributes. It would be very agreeable.

    Natalie On August 19, 2014 | Reply

    haahahaha I’m all for that! Or maybe get a second job? Need help with that?

      Sean On August 19, 2014 | Reply

      yesssss….i would work on the phones or whatever it takes…I is hurtin’ right now : (

        Natalie On August 20, 2014 | Reply

        Or go wash cars. Why would someone pay to talk to you? Not unless it was humiliation lol

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